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Name: Nate
Country: United States
State: North Dakota
Birthday: 9/24/1987


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Occupation: Student


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Thursday, October 12, 2006

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Deja Entendu
By Brand New
Guernica
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don't you love the feeling of being helpless, of wanting something so badly but not being able to attain it.....it can be so frusterating. i think this pretty much sums up my frusteration.....

I’m not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now
And you will always be around.
I’m there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you’re sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.

it seems like the things that matter the most in life are the things that i can control the least. and like it or not they do tear me apart and affect me. it seems that life could be better if i couldn't feel, but as soon as i think this i know that not feeling wouldn't be living, and what is the point of that.


Wednesday, August 23, 2006

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Good News For People Who Love Bad News
By Modest Mouse
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                    THE FOOL'S PRAYER

The royal feast was done; the King

Sought some new sport to banish care,

And to his jester cried: "Sir Fool,

Kneel now, and make for us a prayer!"

The jester doffed his cap and bells,

And stood the mocking court before;

They could not see the bitter smile

Behind the painted grin he wore.

He bowed his head, and bent his knee

Upon the Monarch's silken stool;

His pleading voice arose: "O Lord,

Be merciful to me, a fool!

"No pity, Lord, could change the heart

From red with wrong to white as wool;

The rod must heal the sin: but Lord,

Be merciful to me, a fool!

"'Tis not by guilt the onward sweep

Of truth and right, O Lord, we stay;

'Tis by our follies that so long

We hold the earth from heaven away.

"These clumsy feet, still in the mire,

Go crushing blossoms without end;

These hard, well-meaning hands we thrust

Among the heart-strings of a friend.

"The ill-timed truth we might have kept--

Who knows how sharp it pierced and stung?

The word we had not sense to say--

Who knows how grandly it had rung!

"Our faults no tenderness should ask.

The chastening stripes must cleanse them all;

But for our blunders -- oh, in shame

Before the eyes of heaven we fall.

"Earth bears no balsam for mistakes;

Men crown the knave, and scourge the tool

That did his will; but Thou, O Lord,

Be merciful to me, a fool!"

The room was hushed; in silence rose

The King, and sought his gardens cool,

And walked apart, and murmured low,

"Be merciful to me, a fool!"

 

I THINK THE POEM IS PRETTY SELF EXPLANITORY....


Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Currently Listening
They're Only Chasing Safety
By UnderOath
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I've been up at this all night long
I've been drowning in my sleep
I've prayed for your safe place
And it's time for us to leave

Time is running, it's running on empty
And the gas is running out
I've decided tonight is the night
That I let love aside
Full speed ahead this seems to be the place
I've seen this once before
Planned perfection sought in my dreams
Hoping this would take you home

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time

Around this turn where the cross will cast your shadow
The people will all gather
To remember such a day where the flames grew as high
As trees
And the world stopped for you and me ....................

.......Glass shatters and comes to a halt
I thought we'd be there by now
I thought it would be so much quicker than this

Pain has never been so brilliant
I made sure you were buckled in
Now you can walk hand in hand with him

                                            

The absolute beauty that is UnderOath.....my bittersweet friends.



Sunday, April 30, 2006

Currently Listening
War All the Time
By Thursday
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i love you people, love you lots


Wednesday, April 26, 2006

its one minute till 3. i can't sleep. i don't want to sleep. i think i should hate life. i don't have the energy to. so, my grandma died this last christmas. that really sucked, she really was an amazing woman and it makes me really sad. now, my grandpa (on the same side of the family) is in the hospital. he has cancer. my uncle is also in the hospital. my uncle has rheumatoid athritis and is on tons of meds for it. i don't even know how my grandpa is doing. i hope he doesn't die. from the sound of things he isn't doing well. my heart hurts, not pain, and only slightly sorrow, mostly numb. i think that sometimes i hate life. sometimes i just need to scream. i talked to my dad when i heard about all these happennings, i told him he should get screened for cancer. he said, "whats the point, if i die i die" you can take over for me if do. thats when it struck me. i never want to hear my dad say that again. i'm losing everything....maybe my sanity goes with it....sanitas est fluxus



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